World AIDS Day: Rewind

by j. brotherlove

This year is just slipping away… How precious life is and yet, we take it for granted most times. Even as a pandemic continues to destroy us. George’s tagline (“No one needs anyone. They don’t even just pretend.”) is resonating in my dome. It’s not good for me to feel this way.

Remember my post from last year on World AIDS Day? I wanted to write something inspiring today, too. I wanted you to leave my site feeling empowered and ready to change the world. Unfortunately, I’m at an emotional low-point. I’m feeling distrustful and afraid; selfish and intolerant. I’m am too lazy to ignite the conversations We Do Not Mention on the daily.

I haven’t completely lost hope. It’s just that some days - like today - life seems bleak. Too bleak for this one, black boy to tackle alone. My ego has taken a beaten this year and I only have enough energy to focus on myself, right now. Perhaps, once I have strengthened my mind, body and soul I can be the beacon I am looking for in others. But not today.

I still love you though.

Really.

This is the day to pick each other up and let others know we have their back. So don’t sweat the small stuff. It’s the thought that matters.

I still love you too!